Today marks the third day I have been back at school. It has definitely been an up and down roller coaster ride of emotions. It feels like I never left this place of Hope, as everyone seems to be the same, and nothing too much about Hope has seemed to changer either. This transition has been difficult because I realize how much I have changed. I am constantly reminding myself to not look to the past so often or live in the future too much, it is time now that I start embracing the present yet again. Yes, I will still be counting down the days until summer when I can make it back to the oh so wonderful Cape Town, and possibly Thailand but until then, I will be trying to embrace everything that I have right here at this moment. I realize how many people would be so grateful to be in my position and I refuse to waste my time here. No, I still do not know which direction my life is heading, what I will be majoring in or even where I will be next semester, but as frustrating, stressful,and scary as that can be, I've realized I need to let go. I need to let go of what I am being told to do, I need to let go of what I think I should do, and wait until God points me in the direction of what I was made for. Until then I will be patiently waiting...ok..so not always so patient, but hey I'm trying :)
Whoever is reading this, I just want to say, one you are awesome, even if I have never met you, and two....Carpe Diem!
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