Lately I feel like all people have been wanting from me has been answers. Answers about who I am now, what I've learned, dislikes, likes how those have changed, and beliefs. So sorry to be selfish with this post but it's going to be all about me. You all have been forewarned.

What I've learned:
1.The world is not as it appears to be, but it never really has been has it?
2. I walk funny, causing my knees to curve in to each other as I walk and my right shoe always gets destroyed.
3. People think I have a lisp...I am not one of those people.
4. People are unique, to their background, their history, their stories, size, shape, and color, and I relish those differences. The uniqueness of each person is beautiful and I love people.
5.I love smiling and I realized how many people have pegged that as my trademark. No I am not always happy,but I smile not just when I am happy, I smile to help me get through the hard things in life as well.
6. I've learned to be assertive; To stand up for myself when necessary.
7. Loads about South African history and politics but still not enough.
8. People have quite a few classifications for other people.
9. I've learned to never let a person think they are less than me.
10. As much as I have learned I still feel like the world continues to school me.
11. I love learning. Especially through people's life stories. I love people.
12. I've learned that even if you avoid it as much as possible, because I was raised in America I was raised on consumerism and therefore selfishness. Even when I thought I was being selfless I was shown I still had very much to learn. And I learned it from the most selfless people I have ever met.
13. I've learned that the grey areas in life are ok to be enjoyed. It is ok not to have a strong opinion on something one way or the other. During my time in Cape Town I was always expected to have a strong opinion on what is right and what is wrong but I have grown to accept and love my ability to see the grey area. Being able to see both the good and bad in a scenario or topic.
14. I've learned that so many people picture Jesus as a white blue eye'd man, why is that? I've learned why so many people turn from faith and how it is so easy to get caught up in the idea that people of strong faith have everything together. The truth is that putting anyone on a pedestal will only lead to disappointment and possibly a dislike for a certain religion.
15. I've learned I love to answer someones questions when I am very sure of the answer.
16. I love engaging in conversation about something completely foreign to me, engaging doesn't always have to mean using your voice, it can also mean actively listening.
17. I absolutely love languages and realize the importance of languages when building relationships.
18.I've learned that I am a perfectionist and as much as I would love to change that it is a part of me and I should start to embrace it, but its about time I stop becoming disappointed with my self and start loving my mistakes, flaws, and imperfections.
19. Deep fried Indian Food makes me feel sick...but I still eat it because it's so spicy it clears my sinuses.
20. I love handshakes.
21. I get extremely attached to people and places to the point of a mini depression when leaving said place or people.
22. When I came back I really hated America, I was constantly wanting to be somewhere else, anywhere else, but I've grown to love the opportunities I have been given just for living in this country. It truly is a blessing regardless of some of my strong opinions I hold against certain American characteristics.
23. Live music re-energizes my soul.
24. A friendly attitude can occasionally lead someone on, kindness can actually be cruel.
25. Drop box is one of the greatest inventions.
26. I've learned how sad it is that there is a perpetuating system of poverty, beggars have children, teaching their children to beg. What's the solution and when does it end?
27. I learned how miraculous a daily event such as the sunset or the stars coming out is.
28. I learned that commonalities can be found cross cultural and that is a beautiful realization.
29. I've learned that sometimes the hardest goodbyes don't end in tears at all, they end in a numbness that is difficult to explain.
30.I have learned that it's ok to completely let loose, no matter who is looking, if you are loving that moment, you do you!
31. Love is still the greatest lesson to be learned in life. I fall in love easily, but learning to love, is simply a different story.
32. I don't have answers, just thoughts, realizations, and wonderings.

I am sure there will be a round two of more realizations but until then this is what I've got.